Just A Little Lost

I don't even know what to do. I give my input on what I think we should do and all of a sudden i'm getting the silent treatment, really? I don't even know how the hell i'm supposed to deal with this and you just seem to think  it's all going to be a walk in the park BUT you're difficult and don't want to admit that it's not going to be easy..it's going to be really hard. One of the choices I made is a smart one; I think so. How the hell else am I supposed to say this? The ONLY person that will listen to anything I say now are my sisters but one is only excited because she doesn't have to deal with me. Cool.

I guess it's time to give someone a little message and let them know what's been going on because I know you haven't told her.

It's Just A Fight, Right?

I looked into your eyes and all I saw was anger...you looked so upset. I'v seen you mad before but you looked at me like I was just some old friend you couldn't wait to get rid of. Is that true? What do I do now...i'v put everything into this relationship. I want both of my best friends back so I can cry to them but one of them I haven't even talked to in weeks and the other...he's too busy with his own life. I'm glad I have at least ONE person that won't judge me and will talk to me about anything with out taking sides. I'm thankful for that. I need that. But I can't stop crying. I don't know what you're thinking, or why. I wish I knew. This is all so hard to deal with especially with the fact that we have a a little situation we could be dealing with. I hope we don't...time will tell, I guess. Lately all we have been doing is arguing and fighting ABOUT EVERYTHING. This time it's not even me who started the argument. Maybe, maybe, this IS the end. It's not like I want it to be but...I guess everything must come to an end and there isn't much else I can do but move on, right? I really don't want to. We both put so much into this relationship. I don't want to just drop it, like nothing.

I guess, I really don't have much choice though, huh?

Oh, I love Paramore!

Dear Jaseyface,

I am now constantly asking myself what I did wrong...what did I do this time? Am I really someone that is so hard to trust? I don't think I am. I think I've actually been doing pretty good at telling the truth lately but I feel like I have to hold so much back or if I do tell you you get upset because it's not something you want to hear. I don't know, you know? It's like, I want to to just end it and have all the hurt be over with but than again iSome times you can't just let go of the best thing you've ever had with out a fight. I've never had a relationship like this, a teenage dream. You're my teenage dream. We fight and want to kick each other in the face, sometimes, but through all that we still are together.
I don't know how long this will last or IF it will last but I like the roller coaster we've been on so far. It's been the best yet. It's always going to be hard and we won't know what to do but that will be the interesting part of the whole story.

<3 ,
   Your babygirl