I Just don't Know :/

I would like a little sign that every thing happened over the last day would go away and be okay..but I don't see that happening. It's not like I want this I really don't but what is a girl supposed to do when the person she put every thing into..makes it so easy to leave, for him and not me. He can hand back every thing that I have ever given him like it was nothing. Was it nothing? I don't  know. I just don't even know what to do anymore. It just feels like it was all for nothing now. After every thing that I thought we were working for it's basically falling apart. There is no way i could have taken that a different way last night. It's not just me that thought that it was a cruel and heartless thing to do. If he wants it to be over..do I just let him leave..or keep fighting for something that just won't seem to stay...happy?

GO AWAY ALREADY! >:P

I don't know where else i'm supposed to start. I was having such a quiet, nice day. Maybe I should just start at the beginning.
I was walking through the forum on my way to SSR. (Yes I am classified as a senior but with me dropping out 3 times I have to still do an extra year. Anyways back to the story:) and I could have sworn that I saw you with your bleach blonde spikey hair walk right in front of me. No, i'm wrong. You don't even go to school here anymore. You graduated last year. Why are you here? But that's just like you to show up when my life is going good and i'm all fine and whatever. You always show up. Man, I don't know. I don't even want to process that. I am such a drama queen, I know. But I had a dream of you. We lived together again and for some reason we stayed the night at my sister's house. It's stupid, I know, but you were my best friend. I never thought you, Jordy, and I wouldn't be able to talk and hang out. Man, I really miss those days. THIS is why I don't like seeing you. I got used to seeing Jordy because we go to the same school and he's a good kid. He didn't blame anything on me. HE was going to take the blame. But you, you wanted he and I to take all the blame while you went scott free off to college. Do you think that's okay? Really? I don't! I don't think it's in any way, shape, or form okay. I just wish we all didn't do what we did.  You know? No, you probably don't. You're life doesn't sound like it's changed much at all. That's pretty shitty of you. My life was turned upside down but you got to live your life the exact way that you wanted to. Jordy even had his life change too. We did but you didn't. You're the big baby that wants everything your way or no way. I'm just done with feeling bad for you. But I wish I never had to see you again. Seeing an old best friend is never fun, never. I hope the best for you. I'm not mean enough to say I hate you and hope your life turns out the way mine had. I would never wish that on anyone. Ha. Well, I hope you know how much I wish I never met you.

The Situation

So I have a situation and iy has been dubbed by almost everyone I know as The Situation. I'm not aware any six packs were ever involved. Haa. Well, with this "situation" has been on my mind non stop for almost a month now. It's a big deal, not even being dramatic. Well anyways so a few girls in my Health class know because I trusted them, well, I trusted one and the other kept bugging me because she wanted to know. ANYWAYS so now the girl that kept bugging me to know what it is now ignores me and stares me down, literally. I haven't done anything wrong to her or bad mouthed her in any way yet I still get treated like that. Not cool dude. Every time I try to talk to her she ignores me and when we talk about a certain subject in class she stares at me when she doesn't think i'm looking. I know when someone is staring at me. It's just getting on my nerves when you're hoping to have people there for you when you were there for them and they just leave. It's a terrible feeling. There are so many people this could relate to but it's about one person, maybe two, in particular.
Long story short; Keep an open mind. You never know when you're friend is going to tell you something really surprising and hopes you'll still be their for them. Be there for them, or just leave now.