But only sometimes..

I saw two of my ex best friends last. It was the first time in almost 9 months that we were in the same room together. I don't know what to say. I didn't know what to say. I guess, sometimes I wish that things were the same but I remember how they turned out, and who showed their real colors. I know, well, I hope that I can still remain friends with them after every thing is said and done BUT not every thing works out the way you hope it will. But, once again, sometimes I only wish to see you again, and talk to you, with out my fists in a ball and biting my tongue so I won't say anything ridiculous. I did a pretty good job last night. I do give myself that much credit. But sometimes I really wish you wouldn't have been my best friend. I know too much about you. It's hard to forget you. This probably sounds ridiculous already BUT sometimes the most ridiculous things said are the things we're afraid to speak.