Where do I start? My schedule

Well I did what I said I wasn't going to do and I am severely paying the price. Ugh. In quite a bit of pain. GRRR! ROAAAAAR! But anyways on to a happier more interesting subject; let's talk about my classes as of this week. Yeah, that sounds like a busy plan. (I can hear thunder and rain and outside while i'm typing this. It really sets the mood to blog. :] )

American History_For the majority of this week we will be having a substitute because Shively is gone for a game, or something. I don't pay very much attention. All we do now is write notes, and cramp our fingers, and do worksheets and section assessments. Shively, please come back soon! I miss distracting you for the majority of class so we could get out of homework.
Health_Notes, notes, and more notes!! Guhh. Shultz must be obsessed with giving us notes. Oh, and listening to Josie rant about how intelligent he is, Oh the joys
Silent Study Reading_It is only a 10 minute class but, still, I don't like many of the guys in that class, minus the very, very, few.
Creative Writing_I finally came up with the plot and, oddly enough, Marisol reminds me of the girl Emily Osment sings about in the song "Marisol". Haa, yeah. Coincidental, I think not.
Algebra II_So much homework?!!?!?!? Yes. Who is going to use the quadratic formula to figure out the height, and whatever, of a rock? No, not me. Too little notes and too much homework.
Lunch_Lately Jason and I have been going out with LeeAnn to Quiznos to eat. She's so sweet! :) Mmmmm...by the way, I amm terrible at ordering food. "P
Information Technology_It's really not that bad of a class if you like barely getting any notes and being thrown into an assignment. Yup, cool. Because I really need to know how to make flyers.
Speech_Definitely my favorite class out of the whole day. Oh yes, it makes up for all the other super sucky classes. Why? I'm not for sure actually. I get really nervous before I give my speeches but I always love it, the rush. It's so exciting! I don't know how you couldn't like it. :) I'm also hoping to give my Famous Person Speech tomorrow. Johnny Depp is my favorite, mhmm, I mean famous person.
Relationship Literacy_It is weird having a relationships class with my own boyfriend but it's also interesting to see what he thinks of certain things, like relationships. But we're writing a children's book and I decided it's going to have a few of the same characters from my play in Creative writing. Pretty cool huh? Yeah, I know. :P

Well, that's my week so far. Not too entertaining but why would it need to be? It is school after all.

It's been a hectic week :(

Where do I start with this week? Over all, so far, it's been pretty bad. I have gotten quite a bit of things accomplished BUT that doesn't always count for everything especially with this weeks events. UGH! But to recap, here goes:

Monday-Alot of arguing with the boyfriend, that ended well. And that day ended with not taking to him for the rest of the school day.

Tuesday-Valentines day..my nephew's 10th birthday. Norfolk shooting. Boyfriend leaves for a week out of town. Trip to Omaha to see my sister in law and what all happened. We weren't able to see her because we're only her in laws so we left when her cousins got their. Two car crashes in Norfolk, one ended in death.

Wednesday-Half day at school. We find out that the suspect in the shooting is some one my sister knows. Police can't find him so far.

Thursday-American History test. Speaker in Health class talking about anorexia. Stand off in Stanton, they were told the suspect was in a house their. Later on in the night they throw 17 tear bombs inside and when they go in they can't find. One hour later they bring him out and is taken to Faith Regional.

Friday-The boyfriend is done and should be home this weekend. After school we head down to Omaha to see how Edna is now that the suspect is apprehended, any one can visit her.

Seeing as it is still Friday and only 11 in the morning I can't really put too much for Friday but so far i would say it's been a crazy week and definitely NOT how I imagined my valentines week to go.

Dreams or Nightmares?

I keep having these crazy dreams but some times it's like half nightmare and half dream, good and bad. I don't know, maybe the whole thing is bad and I just want to think it's good. :/ Well, last night I dreamt that I was camping at some huge park with my sister, her husband and their kids and I was telling them on the other side of the water or hill is where I was last time(but i've never been there) than it ends up where we're in this hotel room all 8 of us and it's about the size of a small public restroom(I know!!) and we're just relaxing than we start getting upset because there's noTV. Weird...So somehow we end up in Wal-Mart and finish paying for whatever we got and when I turn around I see this girl B I used to be "best friends" with and she kept staring at me...I don't know why but she just wouldn't stop, and it was really buggin' me out than I just appeared in this room that looked like a hospital room but it only had a toilet and sink. There was a girl sitting on this toilet just sitting there doing nothing and we started kissing. When I opened my eyes(in the dream) and I had her clothes on which was a hospital gown and she had on my shorts and shirt. She left and I started freaking out because I couldn't get out. This lady appears out of nowhere and gives me this pink thing and pushes me into this little rocket thing that has no top and says "As soon as you let that button go, it'll go." and i'm here thinking "What the heck?!" so I let go of the button and I fly up a little but it crashes back down and I get out and i'm on a roof and I start running away from a guy and girl. I think that's all there was. Well, that's all I remember.

Now, here is the meaning of some of the things that happened in my dream::
Kiss-.If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are kissing someone of the same sex, then it represents self-acceptance. You are acknowledging the feminine or masculine side.
Hiding-To dream that you are hiding suggests that you are keeping some secret or withholding some information. You may not be facing up to a situation or dealing with some issue. However, you may be getting ready to reveal something and confess before somebody finds out. In particular, to dream that you are hiding from some authority figure (police, parent, teacher...) implies feelings of guilt.
Chase-o dream that you are being chased signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity. 
Hospital-To see or dream that you are in a hospital symbolizes your need to heal or improve your physical or mental health. You need to get back to the flow of everyday life. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are giving up control of your own body. Perhaps you are afraid of losing control of your body.
Park-To dream that you are at a park represents a temporary escape from reality. It indicates renewal, meditation, and spirituality. You may be undergoing a readjustment period after experiencing some serious personal conflict
Tv-To dream that the television is broken or that the picture is fuzzy suggests that you are looking at a problem all wrong. You need to re-evaluate an issue.


I guess, this is enough because I could keep going on forever but I have to go get ready to leave with the cousin some where. But this is crazy, learned something I didn't know.

Busy weekend

So today I get my house arrest monitor taken off and i'm pretty pumped! So after school it's to the probation office to get that taken off and I have class from 430-5 than walk home and babysit since all my sisters and mom already left to Montana for Auntie Darlenes funeral(RIP Aunt Darlene) and my brother in law seems to think since he is feeling better he doesn't have to watch them but all is well.
Friday:FINALLY get to pick up my Winter Royalty dress and make sure it's the right size than it's off to Youth Philanthropy for book club and possibly spend time with the boyfriend after that. Should be fun! :)
Saturday; Where do I even begin? I don't think it will take too long to get ready for the Winter Royalty dance although I really wish my sister were here to help with the hair and all that.
and Sunday is just a whole nother story. :P

Why did I stop?

Watching Harry Potter? I love the movies and have only had time to read one book but i'm not quite sure why I stopped. I'm really not busy so that couldn't be it BUT I don't watch much TV either so that could be it. Blah. I would chose Harry Potter over Twilight any day! :)

It's days like these..

where you really show me you care. I'm having a terrible day. Not because of something bad that happened or some one being rude BUT just because I get like this some times and you're not getting upset with me, and leaving, like most would. I asked you not to get upset with me because I don't mean to be like this and what did you respond with? "I'm plotting some thing that will make your day better and i'm glad to hear you're trying to fight this bad depressing sleep all day feeling." Lol Of course I rephrased a little but you made me just a little more happier. Lately things don't seem to be going the way they're supposed to and...some times I just need some one to understand that and give me a little space instead of getting in my space, and business, asking what's wrong every five minutes.

Thank you though for understanding. It really does make this Day-being-terrible so much better. :)

I saw your picture today..

I miss you.. I miss us..I miss our crappy little apartment and the stupid things we used to do to pass time..I don't know what to do. I feel like I haven't moved on. You were such a big part of my life. What do I do now? You were my best friend, my other half. I thought things would be better this way, and for a minute I convinced myself that they did, but I miss my old life. I don't miss the mistakes I made but I miss being the three musketeers with you and Codabear..than later on it changed to you, Jordy and I. Times change, I guess. It's weird though because I never thought i'd have to say good bye. Well, I didn't even get that chance. You were just gone. Both of you...I'm not saying i'll never move on and get new best friends because God knows that i've tried BUT I TRUSTED YOU and you both just seem to have let me down..pushed me aside. I guess, I should stop whining but I hope you know you've affected me in a way no one will ever understand. It's so hard for me to trust any one. I hope you found some one that will know every one of your flaws and accept you the way that I have, give every thing for you the way that I did and trust you as much as I did, because I really did. I do wish you the best of luck, all of you. I'm trying to move on with my life and figuring out that I can't trust just any one is the hardest trick to master. Thank you for making me so cautious with trust, with my heart.
                                                                                   Sincerely, the girl that chose to tell the truth

Just sayin'

I know I really shouldn't be doing this right now because I have a speech that's due for speech class in less than a week. But me being me, i'm blogging about some thing ridiculous. :) So I was thinking about this guy I dated once. We go to the same school and NEVER talk to each other. Thank goodness for that! He's kind of a huge jerk and for some reason tends to tell people about the time I broke up with him which I think is pretty weird. Whatever floats his boat, I guess. Well anyways I keep seeing him every where and he gives me and my new boyfriend, who is also one of his "friends, dirty looks and laughing hysterically. Immature! But anyways the bell is about to ring. I better go! :)