I may not look like it but I am a felon. I guess here I can admit to anything, tell you anything, let you in. I don't even know who will be reading this but that doesn't concern me right now. I just want to let out a few things that are a little difficult to keep in. I'm not good at keeping things in either; I love talking to people and telling them what's going on my life. I don't think any one really knows how hard this has been for me. I guess, in order for you to know the truth, and nothing but the truth, I have to tell you why I am telling you anything in the first place. What was it that got me here? Why am I felon, you ask? Well, i'll tell you. It may take a while and I might accidentally skip a few steps but I want to let this out. I want to tell some one. But if you're in my school please be respectful and don't tell other people my business. I don't care if you read this and comment but talking behind my back is the easiest way to get on my bad side. My truth for the day , I guess.
More than a couple months ago, between April and May, I made a few, more than a few, bad decisions. Two people I thought were my best friends and I made some bad choices. I won't go into detail but we did some pretty bad things and now we are all on probation and are not allowed to communicate with each other in any way. I hate it. I thought they were my best friends. I guess, some times you do stupid things for people you think will do anything for you in return. Wrong! But back to the story tomorrow I will be gone from school because I have my last county to go to; Antelope county, for sentencing. I'm kind of really exciting but pretty nervous also. It's like the fate of my life depends on this one judge deciding if I should go to jail, again, or more probation. Don't judge me, that's what I ask. If you're reading this, do just that; READ. Don't judge me. If you want to know some thing; ask me. It's pretty easy. And I will most likely answer it. On my way back from court tomorrow I have to stop at two places that I burglarized and read my apology letter to them. I'll mean every word in that letter. I already do. I want this to be over, so much. I already have 2 and a half more years that I can look forward to probation. Right now I have a house arrest monitor that comes off in 16 more days and a SCRAM bracelet, alcohol monitor, that will be coming off in about 3 months. I'm excited. Oh, and in case you were wondering what that loud buzzing sound is in class; it's my alcohol monitor. Stupid thing buzzes every half hour. Really annoying, if you ask me.
Well, I guess, that's really all I have to say. My sister and her husband just bought the movie Friends With Benefits and I want to see it so i'm rushing through this. Now you know some more about me, and what the buzzing every thirty minutes is.
TaTa For Now lovelies!
I really really hope things start to work out for you.
ReplyDeleteJust learn.
That's all you can really do- mess the hell up then learn from it(:
You sure aren't going to "learn" anything from anyone else telling you their life story. You need to mess up and make mistakes- then see how it affects you and deal with it accordingly(:
Some mess ups are wonderful(:
Others you just want to, well you know, "crawl into a hole and die" sorta thing(:
Believe me when i say i know exactly what youre going through i have stood by so may people and gotten into some deep trouble because of them and the nthey just left me hangin so they wouldnt get in trouble.
ReplyDeleteI've only ever had one person thank me and actually stay my friend; he also tried to get me to let him take the fall since it was his idea, but i was a witness so i took the blame and all the discrimination that comes with being a troublemaker in small towns.
Now hes in trouble for someone elses screw-up and facing 43 years, just so someone else wouldnt lose everything and everyone he had (like we did).
I even took some of the blame but before i was charged and locked u pmy stepdad moved me here so now my best friend and brother is facing this alone, but we do talk to each other like every other night if not everynight (except when he has me on hold for 3 hours)
The best thing to do is just let things unfold as they were ment to and just hope for the best.
I've learned u get stronger from things like this...meaning ur strong enough not to go through some stupid crap like that again...I've made some huge mistakes and yes I regretted them for quite sometime...but then I realized its just another page in my life that I HAVE TO move on from no matter how hard it may be...I just advise that if some stupid crap comes along again NOT to go through with it because yes u have made mistakes but just because u have does not mean your a bad person...it just means ur human and u gotta learn UR own life at ur own pace
ReplyDeleteplz stay strong and never give up:) ur a wonderful person :)
thnak you girls. :)
ReplyDeleteIt does help to know not every one will judge me and what I have done. I know the things I did weren't good and I shouldn't have been doing them but, really, at that time I didn't know how much I would be losing.