Why do I have no school tomorrow?

I may not look like it but I am a felon. I guess here I can admit to anything, tell you anything, let you in. I don't even know who will be reading this but that doesn't concern me right now. I just want to let out a few things that are a little difficult to keep in. I'm not good at keeping things in either; I love talking to people and telling them what's going on my life. I don't think any one really knows how hard this has been for me. I guess, in order for you to know the truth, and nothing but the truth, I have to tell you why I am telling you anything in the first place. What was it that got me here? Why am I felon, you ask? Well, i'll tell you. It may take a while and I might accidentally skip a few steps but I want to let this out. I want to tell some one. But if you're in my school please be respectful and don't tell other people my business. I don't care if you read this and comment but talking behind my back is the easiest way to get on my bad side. My truth for the day , I guess.
     More than a couple months ago, between April and May, I made a few, more than a few, bad decisions. Two people I thought were my best friends and I made some bad choices. I won't go into detail but we did some pretty bad things and now we are all on probation and are not allowed to communicate with each other in any way. I hate it. I thought they were my best friends. I guess, some times you do stupid things for people you think will do anything for you in return. Wrong! But back to the story tomorrow I will be gone from school because I have my last county to go to; Antelope county, for sentencing. I'm kind of really exciting but pretty nervous also. It's like the fate of my life depends on this one judge deciding if I should go to jail, again, or more probation. Don't judge me, that's what I ask. If you're reading this, do just that; READ. Don't judge me. If you want to know some thing; ask me. It's pretty easy. And I will most likely answer it. On my way back from court tomorrow I have to stop at two places that I burglarized and read my apology letter to them. I'll mean every word in that letter. I already do. I want this to be over, so much. I already have 2 and a half more years that I can look forward to probation. Right now I have a house arrest monitor that comes off in 16 more days and a SCRAM bracelet, alcohol monitor, that will be coming off in about 3 months. I'm excited. Oh, and in case you were wondering what that loud buzzing sound is in class; it's my alcohol monitor. Stupid thing buzzes every half hour. Really annoying, if you ask me.
     Well, I guess, that's really all I have to say. My sister and her husband just bought the movie Friends With Benefits and I want to see it so i'm rushing through this. Now you know some more about me, and what the buzzing every thirty minutes is.

TaTa For Now lovelies!

My new obsession...well, one of them at least.

He Is We; have you heard of them? If you like slower, flokish music with a mean than this is amazing music to listen to or whatever it's still amazing music to me. They always have such deep meaning in every song they sing. My favorite so far, Forever and Ever. I love it. The most meaningful song that I just about cry to every time I hear, Kiss It Better. If you haven't listened to it you should. Kiss It Better is about a man that shot another man who killed his wife, girlfriend. It tells his story of being in jail and how much he misses his wife, girlfriend. The whole he keeps hearing the wife, girlfriend say"Kiss it all better. I'm not ready to go. It's not your fault, love. You didn't know." I know it sounds depressing and whatever but it really is a sweet song.
He Is We is better to listen to when you're in "one of those moods" where you just don't feel like doing anything or talking to anyone, a blah day. Well, that's mainly when I listen to them.But, that could just be me. :)

How do you define love?

Merriam-Webster's definition of love is a strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties, attraction based on sexual desire and affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests. If any one asked me how I would define love I don't think I would have a deep or meaningful answer. I might say no matter how much some one hurts and seems to think that no one is their for them and you still try to be their for them even if you're being pushed away, that's something like love to me. I guess I really don't have the strongest and most clear definition of love, some could say. A couple of minutes ago I read a post my creative writing teacher had posted that had young children between the ages of 3-9 explain what they thought love was. Many of these children had things to say regarding their parents and people who are involved in their every day life. One little girl, Nikka who was only 6 years old, had this to say; "If you want to learn to love better , you should start with a friend who you hate." If a 6 year old can say something this deep shouldn't we be able to define love without using words like sex, money and whatever else it is that teenagers seem to think is so popular now a days? Only time will tell when all your "fancy cars", money and media aren't around. Will you still define YOUR love as the new designer hand bag that you "fell in love with" or being the only person their for your best friend? That's really all I have to say for now but here are a couple quotes from some of the children that were asked to define their meaning of love; let's see if this can get a response from you.


'When someone loves you , the way they say your name is different. 
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' Billy - age 4 


'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.' Terri - age 4 


'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents 
and listen.' Bobby - age 7 


'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.' Mary Ann - age 4


When you love somebody , your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image) Karen - age 7 


'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it , you should say it a lot. People forget.' Jessica - age 8

It's what we do in Creative writing..?

Sitting in Creative writing Rowse gets this crazy idea that we should blog so what do we do but come to the typing lab and make our google accounts and blog. It's what we do in creative writing. My first time taking this class actually but, hey, i'm liking it so far. So I chose my background and my blogger name; now what do I do? Any suggestions? :)